It feels like I’m finding my footing now that I’ve been out of the social media game a little over 3 months. I’m starting to feel like myself again – which is startling! While I was in it, I hadn’t realized what it had done to me. I just knew that something wasn’t right, it wasn’t working, and it was time to make some changes.
A friend recently told me that she’d announced on facebook that she’d become a Christian. Now, I choose to no longer identify myself as a Christian and have been through the ringer getting over some of the damage that was done to my inner being as a result of my time in the evangelical community. I still feel like it’s a bad neighborhood for me, but I respect my friend for having found and embraced her faith, and I respect her faith. Some people, however, did not pull any punches in letting her know they did not. I experienced a fair amount of that back when I was walking that road after reconnecting with people I’d known before following Christ. It stung. It was hurtful. It was disheartening. It was disappointing, every time it happened. Why do people have to suck?? And why has social media unleashed such a cataclysmic tsunami of people now going through life as if it’s perfectly okay to suck at being human beings? Okay, so Christianity isn’t your bag. That doesn’t give you the right to knock people down and upside the head with that which is your bag!
The saddest thing about that is, I did some of that as well. I came out of my Christianity experience very badly damaged with no idea if I would ever recover. I spent months expressing on facebook and in blogs all the things I objected to as far as what goes on in the evangelical community and how unlike Jesus it is. I hurt some people. I owe some apologies. It doesn’t mean I don’t have legitimate grievances in terms of what happened to me and what’s being done to people whose only wish in life is to love and follow their Lord and how that’s being twisted and exploited on a pretty widespread basis. There is a lot of muddying the stream. That’s wrong. I know it’s wrong. It’s very wrong. It’s right to speak up about it. But there’s a way to do that, and I didn’t always go about it the right way.
But, as Maya Angelou said, “Do the best you can until you know better. Then when you know better, do better.” As far as my conscience has been able to tell thus far, I’ve done that and will do that. What a gift was given to us in Maya Angelou!!